Barely Alive

March 30, 2012 2:27 am

i would like to say that i don’t think you have the potential for change. 

but that’s not true.

i’d rather believe that you don’t have the potential to make myself feel better.

so maybe you did change, but i don’t want to hear about it.

i don’t care.

and i’m happier when we don’t talk.

February 21, 2012 1:48 am

Feb. 20, 2012

Confession: What I meant to say was — “Why are you talking to me now?”

February 11, 2012 4:41 am

Feb. 10, 2012

What I meant to say was, I wish I had someone to connect with. You seem to have found someone who you are head over heels for and I’m still here in the past, hung up. I miss talking to someone for hours and still being interested in everything they have to say. I like being kept up by stories, even when I’m gradually getting more and more pissed off because I’m so exhausted. Attractiveness isn’t all there is. I am extremely shallow, but I don’t think I could just take home some girl. There would have to be a connection. 

All of my thoughts are selfish. I wish you were unhappy.

February 9, 2012 5:46 am 4:48 am 3:51 am February 8, 2012 7:41 am 6:44 am 5:46 am 4:48 am